Tuesday, June 2, 2020

A Heartfelt Personal Message To The Wizard101 Community

Let me start this out by saying thank you to everyone in the community, you guys got me through the worst 4 years of my life at a high school that I was absolutely miserable at an hated my entire time there. This community gave me something to do with my life when outside I had nothing else, and gave me true friends when in real life I only had tons of fake ones an I'll be forever grateful for that. So thank you all from the bottom of my heart.

In August I will have been playing this game for a decade, and while I know a lot of people already hit a decade of playing awhile ago never did I think when I first started playing that 10 years later I would be writing this article. While I was somewhat involved with the community during all those years, I never would get as involved in the community part of the game as I did from 2016-2019 an likely won't again. I wasn't fully on Twitter until 2017, I was on the Wizard101 Facebook in 2016 although that original Facebook was banned because they require real names an such.The original person who got me into the official twitter/facebook community was Heather, and I will be forever thankful to her for letting the kid I was into The Legacy Wizards an that my friends is a night I will never forget that happened on September 27th, 2016.

They were immediately my best friends, and I devoted all my time to them from when I got home from school to late at night. I remembered how excited I was when I was invited to appear in some of their videos back then, one of them had over 30k views on it last time I checked it. This was before she started streaming everyday again in November 2016 with Val who became the Co host until he abruptly left in May 2018 an I havent personally kept up with him since mid 2019 when he randomly completely cut me off for an unknown reason. Just to clarify I wasnt in any of her streams before 2016 although I do know that she first started streaming a long time before then although I'm not certain when. Anyways, these guys in our group were my closest of friends throughout my entire time in the community. Unfortunately many have long moved on from our group an the game like I have now for the most part, but I will never forget the memories I had with them an could go on for days talking about all the adventures we had. I had so many memories on stream an off stream, we went everywhere an did everything you could in that game 4 times over in our 2 years worth of streaming 8 hours every single day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year averaging 200 viewers daily. Not to brag, but we were the number 1 stream back then an I took a lot of personal pride in what we did for the community even when we were hated so much. These people stuck by me through thick an thin even when I didnt always stick by them like I should have, and if any of you are reading this you know who you are an I'll never forget you an you'll always have my appreciation. Despite the fact that we aren't the #1 stream anymore, and that our group is a shell of what it used to be, there's still a good amount of people who've never left an continue to stick with us all this time later. We definitely have something real, and magical an I hope that someday we can get back to where we were in our prime although we still have fun times every now an then when there's a stream just like old times.. Even the people like me an others who wronged he group over the years almost always came back sooner or later an they were always forgiven an welcomed back in with no hard feelings. Although their are so many other friends I made outside the group in all parts of the community when I got on Twitter an other platforms that it would take to much space to write all of your names down, but I remember the good times I had with you to an will always appreciate you as well. I remember an appreciate my friends who turned former enemies whom I wronged back when I was a rotten teenager always starting stupid stuff an saying childish insults that shouldnt ever be said. Again you know who you are an I've tried to apologize to most of you, but if I haven't just know that I regret it an that I'm sorry for putting you through that nonsense. Thanks again to everyone in the Wizard101 Community for riding along with me during my high school years, and also to everyone who drew my character I still have all of your drawings an they will always be special to me so a special thank you to you as well.

Now here we are in 2020 in Coronavirus time an another election year with endless drama an neverending suspense regardless of what side of the political isle your on where some things have changed in the last 4 years an some haven't. I sometimes think where I would be in the community right now if I wasn't such a rotten teenager during my softmore year. I originally created this blog a few months after I joined the Twizard Community an that was during my prime in the twitter community from May 2017-September 2017, an ever since softmore year that I've never been able to get back to. I was beloved all over the community an got along with everyone, and could have very well been a community leader like all the people who I used to harassed so much have become. While I deserved being shunned by most of the community from all of my horrible actions, I'd be lying if that wasn't a contributing reason I lost interest in the game an why I slowly got less an less involved in the community to where I am now. Nearly everytime I got on Twitter since late 2017 I'm nearly always reminded by my past when I see no one wanting anything to do with me an how I am still blocked by about half the community. While I still feel welcome at community events, I often see people that I wronged in the past who justifiably want nothing to do with me which just makes me want to leave in shame an embarassment. My reputation has been forever tarnished from how many chances I blew from the entire community an no matter how hard I tried to right my wrongs an move from it nothing has changed. This discouraged me for awhile, and I just kept loosing more an more interest since there was nothing I could do to get back to where I was with the community before I wronged it so. If there was one thing I would change about my time here it would be that, I would have been mature an respectful to everyone even if they did insult me an that is something that while I have learned since then its to late in the Wizard101 community for me to ever be able to move on from my past an get back to who people knew me as before I went through my rotten teenager phase.

While that is one of the contributing reasons I have all but left the community for the most part an likely will only occasionally visit there are some other reasons as well. Another reason why is because as I mentioned I recently graduated high school (even though my year ended early in March during my spring break), an that means that now I can finally start my life away from that horrible school an no longer have the limits a child has as I'm fully an adult now. I am not certain what exactly I want to do with my future although I am leaning to joining the military right now, because I don't know what career I want right now an currently am not skilled in any field. Also I really want to try enjoy some other hobbies that are off the internet an can't be shutdown or taken offline at any moment an make some friends in real life, an heck maybe even get married if I find the right girl for me. I'm a young man an have a lot of life left to enjoy, and I need to go out there an live it to the fullest with no regrets which means that I won't be having all the time in the world to devote to this game an community like I used to.

Another reason I have that someday will be the case for all of us is that this game is 12 years old now which is unbelieveable an incredible, but we need to keep in mind that this game is way past the average games lifespan an that likely sooner rather than later this game will end. Its a very sad fact, but deep down even the biggest wiz addict knows this an while we all shouldnt really worry about it since its out of our control, we definitely need to plan our lives beyond Wizard101 because it only has so much time left at this point no matter how many people are still playing. Looking at the reality of this, I've started to look past the game onto my future that I can control rather than relying on a game for my livelihood an social life like I used to in high school when I had no where else. I'ts better I go ahead an move on with my life now than invest to much more time an money into a game we all know will shutdown within the next few years an loose everything while once again having no where else to go.

In conclusion, while I'm not leaving for good at least right now that I probably won't ever be back here fulltime like I was before February 2019, because of these reasons. I appreciate all you've done for me an I hope that the remaining people who are interested in what I'm up to these days an what happened understand why things for me have slowly led to where I am now. Maybe things could've been different if I was more mature, but its best not to look at life like that an I feel like there are better things in life beyond a gaming community anyway as special as this community is for me.

P.S I when I first logged into this blog after over a year of not checking it or writing any new post I was shocked that there are still people even reading this inactive blog. I learned this when I checked the stats for fun to see an I saw that over 200 people read this blog just last month according to the stats despite me not even being active on Twitter. I want to thank my readers, and I hope I haven't disappointed you although I most likely will never be active on this blog because while I enjoyed writing articles on here every now an then the truth I later realized was that my heart just wasnt in it for the long no matter how much at times I wanted to write an create content on here after I "retired" from this site already in the past. I will not be deleting this blog or any social accounts so anyone who wants to continue to read this site is more than welcome to do so although I wouldnt expect any new content in the near an far future.

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